Pressure

Tonight after Nori left I had this unexplainable sense of pressure from within. I think it's a combination of everything going on right now. Lots of little details I need to pull together for this weekends events and for some things coming up in March. It's all about lovin' on people and I LOVE that so I definitely am not complainin' just explainin'.

I'm also in transition as far as my flat - living at a friends house and waiting to move into my new place. It's a completely new neighborhood. I'll have to discover the quickest bus routes to get different places around the city, where to get groceries, who my neighbors will be -- I thought I heard a dog barking next door the first time I went to see the flat. So yeah. Even though I'm going to like it, there are adjustments and I have to get used to everything. I love the fact that I'm literally just across the street from Hero's Square where I can bike and run. That is going to be fabulous, atleast until I get bored and need a Margaret Island fix.

I think I'm also feeling the pressure because some things are undefined in my life. I'm in the process of moving so that sense of being unsettled definitely adds to the pressure cooker of definition. I don't know if it's just women who operate this way or if men do too, but I know for me, I'm a nester. I need to have some things in a routine way organized -- I like to "nest" -- to have a place that's mine, where I can let it all become my organized mess.....not organize everything, but lots of things!

Oh and then there's language. I'm painfully aware that I'm failing at Hungarian. I love trying to read the Bible in Hungarian with Nori tonight but I botch the language so bad that often times, I just have her read it. I'm so thankful for Nori and excited about her future. So many incredible things have been happening in her life. And I just love that girl. I can't believe she's only 20 years old and SO mature! Sometimes I forget and think she's more like 26 or something. But yeah, I've been avoiding my Hungarian teacher or actually, I just haven't called her since I got back and I know it would be good if I did. Darn it!

The one area I'm really loving and don't feel the heat of yet is triathlon training. I'm 4.5 months out and I'm honestly very very thankful for training right now because it helps release some of that pressure from the other areas. All in all, the pressure is doing something -- there's a focus that comes in my thoughts, prayers, desires. I guess pressure is good for that.